Another day of work

Hey guys how are you? I didnt write in sooooo long. If you want to know why.... Well don't even ask. anyway My B-day IS IN A WEEK!!! SOOOO i m really excited because im going skating and stuff on my birthday. K i have so much work over the weekend it's not even funny! i have Civics, Math, Acadamy essay, Science, English... OMG thinking about it makes me upset. Anyway i haven't written in a long time but i jsut wanted you guys to know why i couldnt write in so long. So yeah this blog sucks but whatever. MY B-DAY IS IN A WEEK!!!

I love this song by the way: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jdjtqu3XK4U
(I love ya Ishka Bear lol!)

Confused, undecided, ugh... idk what to call it!

so
hey guys sorry i didnt write in a long time
right now im at the library thinking about the boy i like
i dont know whether i should ask him out or not and i don't know if it's worth it
u see we're best friends and if i ask him and he says no (which he probably will) then it would be weird around each other and we might not be friends
also my parents want me to go to BCA and i really don't wanna go.
if i don't ask him now then i never will and i will regret it for a long time!
UGH this is so hard!
I just wish i had a pet

Love at first sight

Your eyes
your smile
when i look at you i cant help but smile back
your freckles on your face shine like the sun in the sky
you make me want to fly and break free
i dont want to be pulled by your gravity
so when i want to fly i look in your eyes

Hey guys i wrote this song about a crush that i have at school
you can tell that I really like him b8ut when i tried getting to know him he made this face as if i was some crazy girl and he was someone better than me. His eyes looked right through me and i felt like i was ripping apart. I thought i had a chance with him but i guess i don't.
ok well g2g bye

La La La

Oh My God isn't this puppy soooo cute!?

Hey guys sorry I didn't write in so long!
right now I am bored out of my mind sitting in the dark listening to the tone of my uncle's voice raising up and down. today is my dad's b-day and we had to "pamper" him as he likes to say. It was rather interesting. I thought: oh cool we can spend time together, but I guess my dad had something else on his mind! :P Let me tell you it was hell! LOL. My mom and me had to rake leaves, bake a cake, invite our aunt and uncle, and choose the movie that he wanted!

so I just wanted to let everyone know... MY B-DAY IS IN 28 DAYS!!!!!!!
I really can't wait but I really have no idea what I'm gonna get
OOOOW! my ears! Who knew my uncle could ever get my dad to yell in laughter so loud?!

Unvelievable and Ridiculous!

Hey guys all of you are probably sleeping. Well actually probably not but whatever. I am so mad right now *seriously this time I'm not complaining for a bad reason). I just finished 2 series of Merlin and it was very interesting, and I'm kind of tired of thoughts about the academy. So, as if my parents read my mind, they brought up the subject. Here's the deal: I reaaally don't want to go to the Academies, because first of all, no matter what my parents say about "real friends will be there forever" I don't care it still won't be the same and they know it; and second of all, to get into the academy you need to know what you want to be when you grow up. I, in this case am completely lost because I have so many choices. For example, there is a performing arts academy, which i would love to go to because I love acting, and singing, and drawing, and all that good stuff. BUT, I also love helping people however I can (my parents will not agree with this, they think that I'm lazy, and they say I will need to change). So, I am in between performing arts, and medical, and then I just realized I love cooking, and writing. So there you go! And my parents expect me to choose.

Anyway back to the subject. I really didn't feel like talking about this but they (my parents) lured me into it. Picture this: I am in bed and my dad comes and starts talking about the Academies. I'm like "Are you kidding me?". I mean seriously I bet if I did something like that (which I definitely wouldn't) they would also say "I want to sleep" and basically "get out of my sight". But when I say that my dad says I can't keep putting this "talk" onto other days. Well I'm not, I have already decided that I'm not going. There is nothing that can change my decision! I feel horrible and I don't ever want to talk about it. They don't understand yet they say they do. They don't listen and I have told them a million times why I don't want to go, and they say they listen, yet they ask me every time we talk, why I don't want to go to the Academies. I can't take this anymore and I know I've said this before, but I really can't. I need to talk to someone other than my parents to actually make me feel better, because in this case they can't in any way. I can barely put any color in my font because I can't find the color that suits my mood right now.

By the way you guys should read my friend's blog, one of her entries explains how I feel better than I can express it. her blog is: http://muffysworld-mahlet.blogspot.com/

I Am So Lost!

Hey guys hope you're doing well, I feel like I'm slowly dying. My parents really want me to get into the academies and I am really refusing to go. But of course I don't think it's possible to tell them that there is no way I'm going! I really feel bad because it feels like they really want me to be successful and I just want to choose my own path to life. There was one day when my parents said that they let go of the wish for me to go to the academies, and that I could choose if I wanted to go or not. I felt really weird because all my life they have been telling me to study hard to go there. So I thought okay maybe I'll try to get in. They took that as if I said I would enter the academies or at least try. Now my dad is saying that I made a decision and I can't back out. He also thinks I'm lazy (which I'm not saying I'm not, and it doe develop skills okay!?). Okay so here is another problem they also think that I will get over the fact that I going to lose all my friends when I get in to that school. Well here's the deal, no way, these are my best friends and I can't just get over them!
well here is a cool video I found:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=viAVIGpw1xc

Another Boring Day :(

So today is Monday and I didn't go to school. I actually really wanted to for some reason but my parents didn't let me so right now I'm kind of bored. I finished a book already listened to music and now i decided to look at some more videos of cool cheerleaders. I'm not a fan of cheer-leading it's just I found this girl who moves so lightly and does amazing tricks. I think it's cool, but the video is really long and gets boring after a while so you don't have to watch the whole thing (even I didn't LOL!). This is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqYPrAvGDUU&NR=1.
Anyway, I'll try to look for another video clip on something else.
Bye!

This is amazing!

Hey guys! I found this video how an amazing cheerleader, and thought I should show it to you, she does some pretty amazing tricks that I could have never dreamed about, and it seemed really cool!
CHECK IT OUT! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yX3w8MW_0Y&NR=1&feature=fvwp

Karma

Hey guys I guess karma does exist because yesterday I was extremely dumb and rude to my parents. Writing that blog helped me get my feelings out but I wasn't thinking of how my parents just want me to have a good life. anyway now I'm sick with a fever and i barely have any strength. (even to yell at my parents! LOL) As I read this to my mom, she laughs and starts giving me a lecture how it's not that they want me to have a good life but something else. (if you're confused about the previous sentence, don't worry, I am too!) Okay so right now life is hard but i just hope it will get better soon. Okay well I'll write later, and I will try to post a video of how my parents' friends' granddaughter is dancing!

Depression

Hey I really don't know how to name my post because I am feeling really dumb right now. here is the entire story:

Okay, so, today is Halloween and my “misfits” (my best friends) all decide to get together. We all go to Isha's place (the Emo one) and decide to hang out, go trick-or-treating, and later go to Dan Gladstone's house for a Halloween party. We all start figuring out if we can go and we then find out that Mahlet (my friend from 2nd grade) is not allowed to go and only allowed to go trick-or-treat till 7:00. She gets extremely upset and doesn't want to go to trick-or-treat at all. So we all stay till like 5 and then decide to go stuff our mouths with candy. We get ready, and start trick-or-treating, and right when we're getting in the spirit of Halloween, Mahlet's mom calls and tells for her to come home. After that my throat starts hurting and I beg my parents to go to Dan's party. I am so mad because I know that my parents are worried for my safety but Isha is 12 and she could do whatever she wants. My parents think I'm a baby and say I can go but I can't stay late at all. I get so excited and when we are at Dan's, I start to realize that it isn't that fun but it was better than sitting at home doing nothing. Then stupid Ray (also Emo and anorexic) chucks a 6 pound ball at me and my fingers go to hell for some time. Michelle, (the wackiest girl i will ever know) Isha, and Ray, sit with me and talk how horrible our life is in completely the weirdest ways. Sorry if I'm boring you out, i need to get this out of my mind (even though this isn't gonna help) 30 minutes later everyone was asking me to go play manhunt and after about an hour I thought my fingers are already in hell they cant get worse so as soon as we pick our teams, of course my parents have to call and give me a lecture how I'm still young (I know again!!!) and I can't play this late. So I burst out sobbing because I was under so much stress (and still am).
this is why: This year my parents really want me to get into the Academies and I really don't want to. So here is the deal, I used to always get straight A's absolutely no B's and now 8th grade is so hard I can't deal with how much work and tests we have each week. So, as if to make it easier I was sent to English tutoring for the exam (even though Mahlet is there so it isn't that bad). Hey anyone reading this, does anyone have Mrs. Borges for math? Because I need to share my anger against her. Anyway back to the topic. Everyone reading this probably thinks I'm the weirdest kid on Earth but I'm not (I think)
My parents again! are sending me to sleep and it's only 10:30!
I'm really tired of this :'(
Okay well whoever lasted till the end of this post thanks
Please leave a comment.
Bye
By the Way I love this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8wp1z3e8-s
PS: I really mean well, and I love my parents, but sometimes it gets ridiculous!